BLIND DATE
As I drive I head towards a place I have never been. I have directions and I have descriptions. I have an idea of what I will see but I know not what I will feel. I stop and I see a red light beaming down on me. From within the corner of my right eye, I imagine that it's telling me not to go. Then I see a flicker and the light turns green. I go but I want to turn around and say 'Fuck it' but I don't. I just keep moving. The air feels tighter as I see the name of the place I am supposed to be. I brake abruptly and and swallow hard. I am hot, my head is pounding, or is it my heart. I think I still have time to leave before anyone sees me and notices I'm meeting a person I have never met before. But still I go. I park and a driving force drags me from behind the safety of my steering wheel. I walk clumsily towards the giant looking door of this place where I am meant to be. Just as I reach up and wrap my hand around the handle on the door, it opens and I fall forward. Oh My God I think as I slowly feel myself coming in contact with the floor. My face alight, red hot and sweaty, I somehow find my feet and stand again. Now I must leave before the date I am meant to meet notices me. But the hand that opened the door and let me fall touches me lightly on my shoulder. I spin around with fright thinking I was the only one that had seen me fall. I was wrong, he had seen it all. Now he calls my name questioningly. I want to die as I admit to being who I am. He smiles and opens the door for me.
As I drive I head towards a place I have never been. I have directions and I have descriptions. I have an idea of what I will see but I know not what I will feel. I stop and I see a red light beaming down on me. From within the corner of my right eye, I imagine that it's telling me not to go. Then I see a flicker and the light turns green. I go but I want to turn around and say 'Fuck it' but I don't. I just keep moving. The air feels tighter as I see the name of the place I am supposed to be. I brake abruptly and and swallow hard. I am hot, my head is pounding, or is it my heart. I think I still have time to leave before anyone sees me and notices I'm meeting a person I have never met before. But still I go. I park and a driving force drags me from behind the safety of my steering wheel. I walk clumsily towards the giant looking door of this place where I am meant to be. Just as I reach up and wrap my hand around the handle on the door, it opens and I fall forward. Oh My God I think as I slowly feel myself coming in contact with the floor. My face alight, red hot and sweaty, I somehow find my feet and stand again. Now I must leave before the date I am meant to meet notices me. But the hand that opened the door and let me fall touches me lightly on my shoulder. I spin around with fright thinking I was the only one that had seen me fall. I was wrong, he had seen it all. Now he calls my name questioningly. I want to die as I admit to being who I am. He smiles and opens the door for me.
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